"Let's talk about vulnerability. Let's agree upon how much is okay? How much is appropriate? For him? For her? For me?? Do we consider I'ma woman or nah? Consider my station? My financial situations??? Exactly how much emoting is allowed? My badd yall.
I received some pushback from Monday's call w/ Mama Ayanna, @truelovemovement. As if a Hurricane ain't shit. As if floods ain't shit. The Kraken it iz. I can't with some people... just cant. Y'all, please take global events super siriously. It rains on everybody. My/Our 'Mental Health' is important. Just as our 'Physical Health' is also part of holistic progression... I dunno what'a'gwan tho. Let's all be great!
Update: "Victim' is the operative word. Dey say, "Don't play the victim. You God." Facts.
Mental Health Monday: Hurricane Harvey, The Aftermath
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The last time I cried publicly was at the 'Celebration of Life' for my Big Bro. Not 'by blood' kin, my 'by choice' kin. He was killed in a carwreck. One day he was smiling and laughing, the next day he was no longer in this physical realm. His character was larger than life and he was loved by most. So I ugly cried. I broke all the way down and wailed. He deserved that much. His transition was painful and it hurt; I wasn't prepared to say goodbye.
I wasn't prepared for The Kraken either. I wasn't prepared to cold stare at a nightmare. My nerves were shot and I still had to sit and wait to see what would happen next. I didn't see anything normal about the Storm, perhaps thats what it is? Y'all ignorance is bliss. I was well aware that anything was possible... still is possible. Still I wasn't ready. And now Im wondering, was that a once in a lifetime thing or is this the new Hurricane Storm? Seeing how it floods in Houston all the time now... Ugh. To know the weather can turn itself into a weapon now.
I guess I'm just mourning and letting my inner 'little girl' freak out. Mourning all that was lost by loved ones. Mourning the old Houston norm. Mourning the loss of another piece of innocence... And letting my inner 'little girl' freak out while I finish 'downloading' this new program... So to speak.