I experienced a therapeutic Cacao Ceremony last year that inspired a deeper level of respect for Shamanism. I went into the ceremonial space not knowing what to expect, therefore expecting nothing Honestly I was doubtful. Halfway through I 'got out of my own way' and surrendered to the music and plant medicine. I felt the reactions of the Cacao mixing with my body chemistry and there was an Earthy connection- an awareness. Im searching for words...
When an opportunity presents itself again for Cacao in a Ceremony setting and its with a guide from a Native or Indigenous background (and they're character is A1 because although Cacao isnt normally hallucenegenic, it can be depending on how the drink is prepared. Read 'mushrooms'.) then Im sitting in that circle. I recommend you do the same.
If youre in Texas then check-out this spring's Medicine For The People Gathering & Camp-Out. There will be sacred Cacao. March 22-24.